Can some one out the help out a lame dude?

I got nothing to look for in life . . .goal yeah but don't got the skill in it an for some f up resin i can learn it on my own . I'm just look in for some one to teach me how to be smart ,fast, and military skills . yeah sound weird but I think I realy got nothing to live for sshi.ty lookin for some and i don't know wht it is . 19 goin on 20 . live maui . give some help pls.